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Melissa....*sigh*

Hopefully one article will accomplish what I have to say.

At Six Melissa went into hibernation, statis, a cryogenic deep freeze. Mel needed to take over due to abuse suffered. Child is beaten, battered, and bruised. She hasn't seen sun in a long while, and fears light of day. If sun where to shine anywhere on body would expose every scar left on tiny frame.

Exposing self brings tremendous fear. Not wanting others to see what she hid for years. Housed within Melissa's core is immense love, destruction, and chaos. 3 are powerful are on there own, but when all three work in tandem becomes a force beyond nature.

Melissa stays in childlike state scared. Ironic for past 3 years people have reinforced “Melissa” for past 3 yrs I haven't acknowledge my birth name. Meaning zero response to people saying my name. People are typically pissed off.

I hate when I introduce myself as “Mel” people bypass introduction and proceed to call me *Melissa*. Why? What is objective? Fucked fact 2 people I've allowed to call me *Melissa* david father of my daughter and future x..why did I allow them to use my name?

If people who work in a specialized field are looking for a breakthrough fuck y'all are over due.

Allegedly I have ties to militarized black ops who have taken a special interest in Me. Can't undo damaged created in me.

How I relate, communicate, and express myself are left on pages. Read, make sense out of any rambling given. My goal keeping u at arms length of me. Preferably I'd rather bury all of u. Just to make sure I'm safe.

Handlers have bit dust unfortunately I wasn't able to save my daughter and granddaughter from carnage. My biggest regret.

My family line has been torn apart must be so proud randy allen hartman. 3 generations of women past, present, and future. Love wrecking homes?

Take enjoyment out of fucking people over. I can't completely blame him. I ignored all red flags with muthafucka. I went against my better judgement.

While with him I accepted randy Allen hartman's abuse. Why? Isn't that the things are supposed to be?

Last time I hugged him, randy allen hartman came home from work one day upset. I went to hug him, and threw me across room 6 months after we married.

I said, I'd tackle topic of Melissa fuck dat I've lost focus.

randy allen hartman came from a monarched home laced with masonic ties. From enduring molestation from mother, brothers, and uncle.

Raised in a home where such crude behavior is acceptable. Easy to become a predator in preying upon children. Teaching secrets are ok.

My mother's home was in monarched situation also grandpa Air force 20 yrs. Where my grandfather preyed on my mom ever since she was 12 yrs old to 17. Special interest in children with negative blood. Only 3 I suspect Deb who has passed, Shai, and Kassandra. Out of 7…My grandma was a whore cucking grandpa with children who weren't his.

12/26/2022 02:51 · Alisssandra

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12/25/2022 19:00 · Alisssandra

Issues part 2

Living abuse I grew in helped forge feelings of mistrust, distrust, and basically raising myself in a world I shouldn't have been introduced.

Luckily I had intermittent people who helped guide such a soul as myself. People who are far in-between during different crucial time periods.

Yes, I'm writing about my trauma ambiguously. What this doesn't help is taking progressive actions to help fix damage created. Creating a journey I need to embark upon.

I don't have faith in psychological field to truly help, and I need specialized care. Since psychological dr.s are not interested in doing there job, and have agendas of their own makes trusting field difficult.

I hate when psychologists tell me, “I'd make for an interesting case study.”

For all intensive purposes my core center functional, responsible, stable, and dependable. Fun words…I suffer multiple personalities some I'm aware. Others I am not familiar makes living a little scary.

What I do know when Mel cannot handle pressure, anxiety, or high levels of stress I blank out. Another personality kicks into drive, Mel disappears or sleeps. Others personalities kick in they aren't here to hurt or harm. Doesn't happen often noticed more when I worked last job B4 arriving here. They keep me moving and going in a positive direction. Zero harm from another personality.

I have phased out, lost time, and suffered a bit of amnesia. I'm so quiet most wouldn't know if I'm there or not.

Mel my logical, analytical, and deducing mind. My outward shell what I show or give to others. The part which has grown, evolved, and matured. A connected thought process to shield Melissa.

Then I have Melissa….It's easier to say “she's dead” holy fuck just as complex. Easy to describe but complicated. I don't connect to my given name. Stopped going by that name when I was 6 yrs old.

Mel was essential to save what was left of Melissa. I became my own hero in many respects. What I failed in Melissa was sheltering emotions and kept Melissa from growth.

12/24/2022 19:03 · Alisssandra

Issues...

Touchy subjects dealt now I have an opportunity to discuss what I've delayed for years. After 45 years reflecting upon repercussions of cause and effect.

What caused me not to trust, how abuse fucked me over, yes, silence is evil. Silence helps perpetrator get away with murder. By not taking a proactive stance I allowed others to be hurt.

Shame comes with territory not wanting others knowing what I suffered at hands of others. Not wanting to be seen differently, not wanting pity, sorry from people who wouldn't understand. Even worse called a liar.

Not my shame to bare, I had zero control in what happened to me as a toddler and child by my parents, cousin, and uncle. Vile acts for myself caused disassembled disassociation, compartmentalization, add, ADHD, panic, anxiety, paranoia, and ocd.

I don't need diagnosis from a doctor. I live in myself, I know myself better than most know me. I'm more vocal not graphic in smoke shack confessional.

12/24/2022 06:41 · Alisssandra

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I'm part of the 1975 band looking for someone to love who is human too. All about you, Oh, Caroline Wintering, I'm in love with you. Happiness is All I need to hear when we are together.

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12/23/2022 21:04 · Alisssandra

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