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How I survived
I never believed my level of torture was real. If I believed my torture was real I would have died. My mind did not register laboratory clinical sadomasochistic testing bullshit as real. drowning, burning, waterboarding, electro therapy, and drug stimulation specific speed, blended with lsd, heroin..quite a Nazi cocktail. That blend formed a protective barrier around my psychosis shielded my core personality. Ensured I'd never transition into new programmable personality. My mother forced Calculated training princess and pea, Cinderella, Alice in wonderland, and wizard of Oz training. White rabbit training, early feminization,