Had fucked up dream. dreamt I killed 2 children hadlee and hudson in a motel. My future x husband's alleged children. Picked them up one day…and we entered into room hudson first head went into headboard crushed skull immediately made sure he didn't feel much pain. Not so much as a scream…next hadlee….drew scalding water and played a game of how long hadlee holds breath under water…lotsa screaming randy allen hartman…mommy walks in and laura in absolute shock…all I needed to say, “do u think I need ur forgiveness?”