I swear apple tunes blew 1975 up in 2014. I skipped every track blasted on apple Itunes skipped until I was not able to skip tracks. I wasn't ready to listen. Early 2015 I heard falling4u I was hooked and began listening.

When smoke is in your eyes, you look so alive Do you fancy sitting down with me maybe 'Cause you're all I need According to your heart My place is not deliberate Feeling of your arms I don't want to be your friend, I want to kiss your neck…

Lyrics caught my attention, I didn't watch any of 1975 videos until 2017. Love black and white concept. Didn't know group members names not until a month 1/2 ago.

Yes, I'm a fan, but not fanatic. If I like music that's what matters. I figure if I'll never meet them zero point in trying to meet ppl through books, mags, or weird biased biographies seems stupid. Which information is slanted, biased, lacking real objectivity. I don't own anything which screams fan.

First concert 4-30-17 I almost didn't go, but hastily changed my mind. We went.. I don't remember much night completely eclipsed. Fuck my life sometimes.

Never viewed matty as a over sexualized anything. I thought drugs would kill him eventually. If I have to be honest. Something happened in past five yrs looks fucking healthy.

Now before I go to sleep matty's face glitches. Dream: something about a party with 1920 headpieces blue, purple, pink, decked of all things clear dice, lights lit bottom of floor tables of food, chairs, alcohol not sure why chairs where needed everyone was sitting on floor. matty, enters room suddenly people are excited.

Walks in with clear glasses filled with clear liquid. Immediately everyone begins to drink except me. I didn't know what was in glass. matty asked me to drink, suddenly I am looking for exit.

Fuck, I leave and stuck in sound proof room. I woke up..