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Not a Typical Homewrecking Niteflirt Journal.
*Sigh I'm fucking SLOW*
myung chul cho aka bruce cho
astrological sign Sagittarian western and dog eastern
y chromosome birthdate
1+2+1+5+1+9+5+8= 32 3+2= 5
sandy kay looney aka kassandra kaie fowley
Astrological sign Taurus Western and rat in eastern
x chromosome birthdate
4+2+3+1+9+6+0= 25 2+5= 7
Mel Western double leo w/scor-sagian asc and Eastern snake w/ either goat or sheep ascendant depending on region.
8+1+4+1+9+7+7= 37 3+7= 10 1+0= 1
brandy leeann looney biological sis was given up for adoption. Astrological Western cancer and Eastern horse.
7+1+0+1+9+7+8= 33 3+3= 6
What the fuck? matty confuses me… matty states, “I've never been in love.” Feeling something chemical?
Yada, yada…met 2014 dated briefly but due to scheduling neither had time?
trailer trash taylor swift made time for joel in 2016. Fuck bitches gave six years for a unrewarding end. Wanted something which wasn't available imagined fairy tale (yes, constantly chasing ass which will never be available hoping for sloppy seconds.)
Gotta taste pretty gewd with trailer trash taylor's alleged bisexuality I suppose more the merrier. Could it be trailer trash taylor swift is really a lesbian and afraid to admit her own sexuality?
If joel and trailer trash taylor were fuckin around during relationship fuck exactly same. Accept responsibility in action trailer trash taylor swift.
Victimizing others for trailer trash taylor swift's level of victimization and feeling justified in Behaviour.
joel and taylor swift are quite vain and narcissistic. ur right: taylor swift problematic in relationships. trailer trash taylor swift is emotionally unavailable and making same mistakes.
matty healy has much growing up to do. Can't call urself a man if giving an apology when u said, “there's nothing to apologize for.” What da fuck did u omit? Fuck makes matty healy a liar, then humiliate urself on stage? Ugh, Make Me Vomit
Throwing tantrum on stage fuck talk about classic. The emotional energy is honest, but accept what trailer trash taylor has done to others ashame u ignored red flags.
I guess u thought u'd be exception. I'd rather watch u thrash stage vs faux masturbation scene. As soap opera unfolds, what happens when someone feels no one else is paying attention.
how pretentious, self entitled, and ass-oholic people work in today's society.
Oh, on side note people are egregious and totally afraid to speak truth making general population liars. Blaze on controversy…
On personal note: wealthy peeps need a garbage pail kids lux edition needs to be made in honor of celebrities.
Oh, Of course sincerity is SCARY..Why fear of rejection. 10 out 10 simple math one will have feelings where other does not.
One more .. matty healy how would you know people have been calling you a cunt relentlessly? if you've been offline what are mates filling u on what u missed online?
4 1/2 yrs no sex, having bad sex, or chronic masturbating does damage in all aspects. None is healthy we want to believe sex helps betterment of human kind.
randy allen hartman would put dick through any grand central station to say he's fucked all types. randy hartman had vasectomy to stop procreation.
Trust randy hartman I am over you but I am not over what happened between us. Shit, I'm not over what I've experienced.
Watching bio y chromosome beat x chromosome. I have y's move where I grabbed randy in same fashion. he'd hit me, stomp my feet, or hit my face. When he decided to put his fingers in my face. Fuck like jaws bite the fuck out of fingers!!!
Happened several times over as if he expected different response, or I'd grab fingers twisted fingers and wrist. Dropped him to his knees. I should have broke'em to help randy to never forget.
What stopped me…he tried proving story that I'm crazy so he could pull annulment.
What I don't understand are dates? August 4th, 2015 u weren't home at all. Where were u on fourth of august? August 5th u were home for birthday. Puget sound naval shipyard gives birthdays off.
Care of wife…Check dates….July 31st and August 4.
I hate how people write me off as stuck up, snobby, and above others. No one stops to think about what may have given cause or effect into a person's behavior. I'm a contradiction shy yet shocking.
I'm so quiet when I do speak what I say is unexpected, completely out of left field, but relevant. Sounds right for a left handed individual.
I was beaten as a toddler, child, adolescence severed me drastically. As a result I'm disconnected from people. Suffering issues of trust, I trust few, and keep people at arms length.
Hence my side job over phone. Sexual abuse caused issues with intimacy. My attitude….we've had sex, now what? The given feeling is fleeing. Fucking is one thing..what happens later is another.
Fear causes panic….set different from others I'm on high alert.
I am highly abused, traumatized, and how experience shaped me. I don't openly discuss any of this people in general such as relatives, my friend, or people I'm close.
I'm slowly beginning to open about what I experienced as a whole. Terrible enough my daughter says, I'm lieing bc I act to normal to have been abused. My response, “how are abused people supposed to act?”
Last thing I want people noticing about me is abuse. I have issues to resolve before trying to be with anyone else.
Classic line, “I've been hurt before.” I never want to victimize another for my level of victimization. Opens paths of manipulation, abuse, and control.
Since beginning portion of journal.. Fuck ailment: headaches, constipation, nausea, and restlessness.
Feelings: lost, confused, betrayed, hurt,
I feel data sheets are all wrong written in wrong perspective. Tests ran say, I'm a danger to others? Who provoked danger in me? The bullies wanting to protect their hide (hyde).
Allegedly I kill people in fairness they stop my heart using cardiac arrest. u kill me first by putting me in zero gravity. Giving full access to My power.
Yeah, kill me, expect me to Stargate, and I refuse portalling out. Held scalpel to my physical self (neck) by refusing directive. Fuck u…
Fuck yeah, allegedly I fried everything and everyone in fucking sterile white room. Then have nerve to call Me a Murderer.
I didn't need defibrillator, my ethereal self zapped back into body, and jumped my heart. Less than 5 minutes white sliding doors opened. Doctors flooded room needles in hand.
I'd say I was 8 or 9 having such a nightmare.
Apparently my mind a labyrinth. A depressing maze leading no where…like pentagon..