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-Writing about trauma feels more traumatic. Admitting physical, sexual, and emotional abuse. My high school senior thesis was about very topic.
+Writing about trauma feels more traumatic. Admitting physical, sexual, and emotional abuse. My high school senior thesis about very topic.
 I am my own case study. Lends in my shame of having to write pleasantries in growing up.
-I hate reflection looking into a mirror having my eyes reflect into my soul. Cringing knowing how dissected, disconnected, and segmented. Mind, heart, and body 3 different entities paralleled.
+I hate reflection looking into a mirror having eyes cast upon my fractured soul. Cringing knowing how dismembered, disconnected, and segmented. Mind, heart, and body 3 paralleled entities.
-What writing perspective do I want to use? Love feeling indecisive.. Normally I'm indecisive about dinner. paradox people feel I'm put together if people look inside out others would be frightened in view.
+What writing perspective to use? Love feeling indecisive.. Normally I'm indecisive about dinner. paradox people feel I'm put together. Heh!
-I'm not looking forward to pain, depression, and feeling physically ill. Fuck path to self healing is fucking over rated.
+I stand str-8, eerily quiet, and didn't realize how my quietness unnerves others. Then again when I speak umm. People wouldn't expect to hear words fly from my lips rather shocking, grotesque, and realistic. Then I revert into my shell.
+Truthfully, I dress like a bum living for comfort, my hair always a mess, but always clean I love smelling fragrant.
-I know I need to make changes. I'm sick of beating my head against wall apparently I haven't learned shit. If I'm repeating same fucking mistakes.
+Favorite fragrances: Angel, amber, hypnotic poison, and be delicious.
-I want to feel complete, whole, and healthy having ability to walk away from anything unhealthy in My world. Ability in utilizing Tesla coil, I am receiver and transmitter took Me a long time in figuring mystery.
+Love soft citrus, vanilla, bergamot, lime. Harsh artificial scents make me gag. My hair, nails, and soft skin. My skin feels like silk,
-I hope thought scares those whom tried controlling Me. A lil late in game..I've been meditating and transmuting. Clearing negative trees helpful Sakura, dogwood, willow, magnolia, redwood, Sequoia.
+I touch others with feather light delicacy. The same fashion grandmother Cho touched me. I miss my grandmother's touch velvety hands ever so gentle. Touch is important and meaningful.
+Unfortunately, I'm afraid allowing others to touch me. If around family I'm comfortable with I'm alright with touch. if people look inside out others would be frightened in what's viewed.
+I'm not looking forward to pain, depression, and feeling physically ill. Fuck path to self healing is fucking over rated.
+I need to make changes. I'm sick of beating my head against wall apparently I haven't learned shit. If I'm repeating same fucking mistakes.
+I want to feel complete, whole, and healthy having ability to walk away from anything unhealthy in My world. Ability in utilizing Tesla coil, I am receiver and transmitter took Me a long time in figuring mystery.
+I hope thought scares whom tried controlling Me. A lil late in game..I've been meditating and transmuting. Clearing negative trees helpful Sakura, dogwood, willow, magnolia, redwood, Sequoia.
+I planted meditative trees, trees are flourishing 17 yrs of growth.
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