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-As a small child always felt something lurked in shadows, what I don't know?
+As a small child always felt something lurked in shadows, what I don't know? I always felt watched daytime, nightime, it didn't matter. At night time things became worse, what does a peaceful night of sleep equate?
+Fuck I don't know..
-I always felt watched daytime, nightime, it didn't matter.
+or I can't remember. I remember a time when I lived on 2 hours of sleep.I was frightened to sleep. Undergoing regimented physical, mental, and emotional abuse severing any tie for lent ability to trust. Early in age I understood such concepts of contradiction, deception, and anger I never understood x-chromo, "Don't make me beat you!"
-At night time things became worse, what does a peaceful night of sleep equate?
+I'm not? I can not make you do anything you do not want to do?
+How am I causing you to beat me? (that sentient) My ass was so beat as a child it's not funny.
-Fuck I don't know..or I can't remember.
+I was raised with concepts and ideas to protect my abuser. Making me ask the question?, "What's wrong with me?"
+The stockholm syndrome kicks because I am suppose to love my abusers? Seems to be the message, and how I was suppose to form to how x and y molded me..I never did Programming began early...
-I remember a time when I lived on 2 hours of sleep.
+====== ======
-Because I was frightened to sleep.
+Religion sanctioned abuse, military sanctioned abuse off the books, I was sold by my parents!!
-Undergoing regimented physical, mental, and emotional abuse severing any tie for
+Like a fuckin common slave.I found one tracking device, I did not save this but I'm happy to describe. It was a piece of film, white on one side, kodak film with a red strip on top side of film.
-lent ability to trust.
+I'm not saying this was a unique foreign object in my upper forearm. Experiencing harassment while driving, unmarked vehicles, military vehicles, vehicles with military general stars.
-Early in age I understood such concepts of contradiction, deception, and anger
+Dont' get me wrong I see cars like this, but not on a daily basis. Followed into places such as Wal mart, Target, Resturants. Receiving terrible food when I am with my husband. On my own I receive perfect food go figure.
-I never understood x-chromo, "Don't make me beat you!"
+I married a hitman, he fits the descript.. Long story stort, I'm not sure what the real story is, but I was suppose to be head over heels in love with hitman, and when I found out he wasn't all that.
-I'm not?
+I was suppose to hit delta mode, self descruct mode, and kill myself. No one banked on self love I have for myself therefore beating odds stacked
+against me. My survival perplexes teams studying me.
-I can not make you do anything you do not want to do?
+How I compare with others family members our stories are similar. considering we were all raised apart. Drug addicts, imprisoned, mental disorders, young parents, seems like a typical pattern. I made different choices, and still failed without going off the deep end.
-How am I causing you to beat me? (that sentient)
-My ass was so beat as a child it's not funny.
-I was raised with concepts and ideas to protect my abuser.
-Making me ask the question?, "What's wrong with me?"
-The stockholm syndrome kicks because I am suppose to love my abusers?
-Seems to be the message, and how I was suppose to form to how x and y molded
-me..
-I never did
-Programming began early...
-Religion sanctioned abuse, military sanctioned abuse off the books,
-I was sold by my parents!!
-Like a fuckin common slave.
-I found one tracking device, I did not save this but I'm happy to describe.
-It was a piece of film, white on one side, kodak film with a red
-strip on top side of film.
-I'm not saying this was a unique foreign object in my upper forearm.
-Experiencing harassment while driving, unmarked vehicles, military vehicles,
-vehicles with military general stars.
-Dont' get me wrong I see cars like this, but not on a daily basis.
-Followed into places such as Wal mart, Target, Resturants.
-Receiving terrible food when I am with my husband.
-On my own I receive perfect food go figure.
-I married a hitman, he fits the descript..
-Long story stort, I'm not sure what the real story is, but
-I was suppose to be head over heels in love with hitman, and when I found out
-he wasn't all that.
-I was suppose to hit delta mode, self descruct mode, and kill myself.
-No one banked on self love I have for myself therefore beating odds stacked
-against me.
-My survival perplexes teams studying me.
-How I compare with others family members our stories are similar.
-considering we were all raised apart.
-Drug addicts, imprisoned, mental disorders, young parents,
-seems like a typical pattern.
-I made different choices, and still failed without going off the deep end.
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